Well then.

That last post was pretty fucking half-assed.  So I'm actually going to put some effort into this one while the rehearsal brownies are in the oven.

I've decided that nothing will ever matter as much to me as the well-being of my friends.  It's taken me a while to actually realize it, and I'm a bit ashamed that I was so selfish before, but there it is.  And so here goes nothing.

I can't describe the intensity of the admiration and love I feel for my best friend (to protect her identity, I shall not use her real name).  GG2 is one of the strongest, most intelligent, and most incredible people I've ever known.  She may think that I'm saying this because she will read this at some point, but I feel every single bit of what I claim, plus plenty extra.  I literally trust her with absolutely everything (I'm certain she knows more about me than my family and my therapist combined).  She has saved my life more than once; she is more important to me than I can ever possibly put into words.  My biggest wish at this point is that she will eventually see what I see-an undoubtedly beautiful person in every way possible.  I love you, GG2 :-)

Cylon (yes, it's an alias) is my best guy friend, and I don't think that will change for a long time.  He's one of the only guys I can go to for legitimate advice, and one of the only guys I feel like I can trust...that means a lot.  He's put up with so much of my crap, and he's never asked for anything in return (I'm sorry about the endless Jack Bauer babble haha......:-P).  Like GG2, he has saved me from doing something terrible, and I will forever be grateful to him.  I owe him a lot...thanks for everything, Cylon.  And by the way.........................Marla Singer IS the best option.

Tyler Durden (haha you're welcome) has been my friend for quite some time, and that will never change.  But there's been a recent development in our lives (I'd like to think of it as a good one) that has led to a different sort of relationship.  In 8th grade AIM-speak, 0mG hez tOtAlLy lyk mi bf lolzz.  But anyway...

I'm not sure if he's going to read this, but that doesn't really matter.  I could say quite a bit on this topic, but then I'd find myself rambling, and nobody wants that.  All I'll say is this; he makes me happy.  He makes me feel safe.  He makes me laugh.  In short, he's everything I could want in a boyfriend.

You all make my life worth living.  I wish you all the absolute best in your lives, because you deserve nothing less.

I love you guys more than you can possibly know. <3