Let's get something straight

I miss you.  Or rather, I miss who you used to be.  I think back to the person I loved a few years ago...I want her back.  

I saw a few shimmers of that girl tonight.  I don't think she's completely gone.  Somewhere, I know she still loves me and wants things to be the way they were.  So I'm willing to give things one last chance, because I don't want to lose her forever.  I know you can let her out.

But let's clear a few things up.

First and foremost...I don't give a FUCK how many guys have flirted with you, or how many guys you've had to turn down (I especially don't care if they're guys you know I used to have feelings for and couldn't get any reciprocal affections from).  It used to make me feel ugly and insecure, but now it just pisses me off.  You do realize that there are other girls who are working their ASSES off and PRAYING and CRYING to get those guys to even LOOK OVER once in a while, and that your comments about who "supposedly" was stroking your thigh under the desk during class make them feel worse than they did before.  Contrary to your belief, not everybody is madly in love with you and your tits.  I'm tired of hearing about it, and I'm tired of hearing about how ready you'd be to hook up with the senior hottie of the day if the opportunity presented itself even though you have a fucking boyfriend.  Show some goddamn loyalty and some fucking self respect.

Secondly, how dare you come to me complaining that your best friend is being a bitch because she's mad at you after you PRESSURED HER TO DRINK WHEN SHE DIDN'T WANT TO.  No, booze is not a big deal, but it's a HUGE fucking deal when you don't take the time or energy to respect a simple and perfectly reasonable wish.  Especially if it's your best friend.  Yes, I agree that angry teenagers are a pain in the ass, but in this case, it's most definitely YOUR FAULT that you're stuck with a pissed-off friend.

Thirdly....I'm sorry, but if you whine about how acting just "isn't worth it for such small parts that I'm above" ONE MORE GODDAMN TIME, I swear to fucking god I'm not going to be polite and hold back.  You aren't a brilliant actress.  Actually, you're pretty horrible.  There are many things that you're quite good at, but acting really isn't one of them.  So yeah...any time you get a part with five lines or less, you deserve it.  Frankly, you probably don't deserve to get cast at all.  And if you took acting seriously at all, you'd understand that performers aren't going to get what they want all the time.  Getting your mother to call the director and complain about casting is unprofessional, childish, and weak.  Grow up, show some humility, and keep the fellow actor-bashing to a minimum.  Nobody else cares.

Look.  This is why I distanced myself in the first place.  I was sick of the competitive and humiliating bullshit that I always had to deal with; it got to the point where I couldn't be around you without feeling physically disgusted with myself.  But tonight, I remembered what made me care about you and love you in the first place.  I still see that something's there...

I miss you and I care about you.  I really really do.  But let's get something straight.

I'm not going to put up with this anymore.